Baby Wait...

I know that I sound pathetic, but had I known now what I knew 9 months ago, I wound have watched what I ate while I was pregnant. It is taking forever and a day to lose the baby weight, even while breast feeding, exercising, eating healthier, and going to O.A. meetings. Whoever said that the weight comes off faster breastfeeding was horribly mistaken! It's a lie. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm bonding with my son and it's great, but I thought that I would have at least lost about 40-ish lbs by now (it's been 2 months since I gave birth and I have only lost 30lbs, and I can hardly tell). I fell heavy and my energy level is nil. I feel obsessed with losing the weight and it's making me feel even more upset with myself. I don't feel like me and I hate that feeling that I am not really me because I am so focused on the baby weight, and it's impacting how I live my life. I just want to be a healthy mom that can set a good example for her son. I want to be their for my son and be the best mom that I can be. Food sux...